Do You Have To Have Faith?

I doubt George Michael was meaning faith in the religious sense but hey, I like a good pun. I come from a pretty religious family, not so much my immediate family but cousins, aunts, uncles and grandparents. Almost every one of them is heavily into the Christian faith. Which is hard for me, being gay and agnostic.

The important thing to me though is that my mother and sister are cool with it, and they are. They couldn't be better really. Everyone else just has to draw their own conclusions, and if they decide that me being gay is too much of an obstacle then I need to remember that that's their issue and not mine.

In the past it's really got to me when I get a bad reaction to my sexuality. That probably sounds silly to most people, but to me being gay is a huge part of me, not just in the sense that I have relationships with men but for me it defines the kind of person I am and what I enjoy doing. Beer and Rugby (the two manliest things a kiwi bloke can enjoy) are the furthest things from my mind when I'm thinking of a fun thing to do. I'd rather drink a classy cocktail and dance to R&B/Pop/Dance. Shopping is my idea of a good time. I watch Desperate Housewives and I bloody well like it! But I have a hard time being open about these things with people who aren't like minded. So that's my mission at the moment. Try and build my confidence so that I can just be myself, no matter who I'm with or what I'm doing. You won't ever hear me say 'I'm here and I'm queer, get used to it', but that is the sort of attitude that I think I need to adopt.

Umm, that's about all I've got to say. I'm liking this blog thing. Just to be able to put your thoughts out there is really liberating.