It's a Bittersweet Symphony

This song has always been powerful to me. When I'm sad it fits my mood, when I'm happy it fits my mood. Not many songs can do both. Just thought I'd share the lyrics with you :-)

Cause it's a bitter sweet symphony this life...
Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die.
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down...
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah.

No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold, I am here in my mold.
But I'm a million different people from one day to the next...
I can't change my mold, no,no,no,no,no,no,no

Well I've never prayed,
But tonight I'm on my knees, yeah.
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah.
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now.
But the airwaves are clean and there's nobody singing to me now.

No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold, I am here in my mold.
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no,no,no,no,no

Have you ever been down?
I can't change, I can't change...

Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life.
Trying to make ends meet, trying to find somebody then you die.
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down...
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah.

You know I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold, I am here in my mold.
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next.
///I can't change my mold, no,no,no,no,no///

(It justs sex and violence melody and silence)
(It justs sex and violence melody and silence)
(I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down)
(It justs sex and violence melody and silence)
(I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down)
(Been down)
(Ever been down)
(Ever been down)(Lalalalalalaaaaaaaa...)
(Ever been down)
(Ever been down)
(Have you ever been down?)
(Have you ever been down?)
(Have you ever been down?)

Finally Learning To Drive!

Well ever since I was 15 I've been coming up with excuses why I don't want to get a drivers license but the truth is I've just been a coward. The thought of driving has terrified me all my young adult life but finally I've got my learner license and I'm having lessons. I just got back from driving through busy traffic in the rain and the dark so I'm feeling really confident with it now :D Yay me!

I reeeeally want to buy a new Mini when I'm able to drive on my own. After seeing The Italian Job I just love them!

My Geeky Side Shines Through

When I was in primary school I was one of the cool kids, but when I got to high school I ended up being one of the geeks. Looking back, I think I did it deliberately because, and this sounds harsh, 'geeks' didn't get girlfriends, so I didn't seem unusual in that crowd. I didn't end up coming out until 18, when I'd left for university. Anyway the reason I bring that up is because I learned to enjoy computer games and fantasy novels and that sort of thing when I was in high school. Robert Jordans Wheel of Time and Terry Goodkinds Sword Of Truth were the books I enjoyed most.

When I was 15 I had to write a short story for an English project. I wrote about the birth of a child and the death of her mother shortly after childbirth, and the story was in a fantasy setting. I got high praise for it from my teacher and she told me she wanted to read more. She was really an inspirational teacher and it got me to thinking about what would happen in this childs life. Soon other characters started to feature, and I wrote a couple of chapters which I was quite proud of.

Then I got involved in an online game called Neverwinter Nights which is based on dungeons and dragons. I found a game server I enjoyed and started playing characters that I had dreamed up for the novel. It was a roleplaying server so it was a great way to get to suss out how the character thinks and behaves. As time has passed I've found myself thinking more and more about the novel. When I'm reading my mind starts drifting to plans for my own book and then I realize that I've just read a whole page and I can't recall a word of it.

So recently I've started writing again. The chapters I wrote when I was in my teens aren't relevant to the story anymore but I really think this is something I can finish because I have a ton of ideas buzzing around in my head. The picture included is images I found online that represent roughly what some of my characters will look like. Since I'm not an artist I have to go on other peoples work, which is a bit frustrating because I have images of the characters in my head.


In other news, I got the job :D yay me! I start May 28th and I'm pretty stoked about it.